Category: LOVE


editing this wedding.
 husband took 1 & 2.
 i took 3.
he is teaching me more about photography every day.
 his camera is full of black and white film.
 expectation and excitement.
i love my husband.
 he is such a gift.
and the Creator of light?
 what a blessing to my soul.


I am making bread for the first time in my new house as a new wife.
This is most exciting for me. Drinking iced coffee out of my new anthro mug listening to mumford per the husband. I am very thankful. I’ve been thankful and thinkful all week long. It has been a splendid experience. Who ever knew that being married would be so peaceful and and so graceful. I love mornings. They are everything I thought they would be and more. We have this ridiculous idea that dreams are better than reality, but I can say with my whole heart that my reality is better than my dreams. Life is freedom. I love working together with another person. Another person brings joy. Plus Christ is pure elation full of cherry blossoms. Metaphors are the only thing I know to explain how I feel now. Making bread is the expression of my heart.

I am fully enjoying life.




i am a wife.
He is my husband.

i love him.


Undeveloped field of life.

Real quick:

-Getting married in 1 week.
-Sisters here.
-Bridal shower.
-Free dishes.
-Crazy mind.
-Peace from God.
-Marrying a good good man.
-140 spoons to buy.

All will come to pass. Joy will pierce the depth of my soul. Bring it God. Bring it.


the heart of her husband.

An excellent wife who can find?
She is far more precious than jewels.
11 The heart of her husband trusts in her,
and he will have no lack of gain.
12 She does him good, and not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She seeks wool and flax,
and works with willing hands.
14 She is like the ships of the merchant;
she brings her food from afar.
15 She rises while it is yet night
and provides food for her household
and portions for her maidens.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
with the fruit of her hands she plants a vineyard.
17 She dresses herself with strength
and makes her arms strong.
18 She perceives that her merchandise is profitable.
Her lamp does not go out at night.
19 She puts her hands to the distaff,
and her hands hold the spindle.
20 She opens her hand to the poor
and reaches out her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of snow for her household,
for all her household are clothed in scarlet.[f]
22 She makes bed coverings for herself;
her clothing is fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates
when he sits among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them;
she delivers sashes to the merchant.
25 Strength and dignity are her clothing,
and she laughs at the time to come.
26 She opens her mouth with wisdom,
and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.
27 She looks well to the ways of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children rise up and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women have done excellently,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain,
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands,
and let her works praise her in the gates.

-proverbs 31:10-31

intensity of heart mind soul body spirit.


The realization came.
The couple in front of me, they are on a date. Both people want love. That is all we want. Love. Unselfish love.


Only comes from Jesus.


Where was my head all this time?



‘so be it’

so be it

and let me run with millions of horses, and
this thing that has begun.
let me win ruhbarb and joys of the sun

i was only just 4 years old 18 years ago

and if you counted my freckles, they would glow as

the number of scars in my heart
most of them fresh, most of them won

because in the end
the victories we win
they all start with a fight
with some gin.




and all the paintings said ‘red’.

I sat down to write a post about love letters, because I wrote one to Nat. It is nice and long and sealed with a lick. Lately, we have been playing stupid highschool games on the phone(like 20 questions) and I kind of like it. I have also been thinking about photography today, and how I want to be a better photographer. I want to work on my depth  of field stuff. I really want to be a good photographer. Set apart from the other 1.5 million girls who own a good camera. I had bought a camera right when the boom was beginning. Now it is full blown, and there are a lot more people who own a Nikon or Canon. I am starving. I’ve barely eaten anything all day. Mostly I’ve been working on my computer science homework, and thinking of writing…my journal is at Nat’s house right now, so writing has been hard. He got me into this moleskin habit, and now I can only write in my moleskin. My goodness. This probably isn’t good. He also has me noticing every single ampersand I come across. Without even trying. This is what being in love looks like.
Your fiance is a nerd(you are the cutest nerd in the world though honey)? You become a nerd. So watch out. [; I’m beginning to think in HTML again. O my goodness. O MY GOODNESS.
I’m going to be a good artist. I have decided.
A damn good artist.
I better end this before I get carried away.

a woman.

Juggling Computer Science 101, Anthropologie, and planning a wedding.
Missing him today.