This morning my alarm went off at 6:00 a.m. It was still dark outside, and I was cold, so I wrapped myself up in my daddy’s jacket…I slowly wandered into the living room, trying not to stumble carrying my Bible with me. I flicked on the light in the dark room, and thought to myself…o dear. “I am not feeling very well right now”. A “what am I doing” moment struck me hard. The past two mornings have been rather odd to me..I haven’t felt right…the weird dreams I’ve been having haven’t been helping either. Nontheless, I sat down on the couch and said a prayer, asking the LORD to help me get out of this mindset. I was reading in Genesis again(because I’ve started over). It was the passage about Jacob stealing Esau’s blessing..hard story. Beautiful story. I felt a little better after that.
Then I got ready to go to church. My daddy so kindly drove me down there(since I don’t have a car)…
the minute I stepped foot into the building, I knew I was supposed to be there.
All the weird feelings that I had had this morning, disappeared.
All my life I have searched for some place that I belong…I think I’ve found it.
I played with the worship team for the first time this morning. It was one of the best things that I have ever done in my life. I have so much to learn(because I am used to being that solo artist), but I love it. I love playing music for Jesus. With all my heart that is what I want to do with the rest of my life. Play music for Jesus.
Then we went to an A/V meeting. That was rad. I think Bella is going to become a spiffy audio and visual girl♥
today is going to be a good day I think.