i’d like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly..

My mind is sprinkled with a mess of different things right now.

For some reason, the movie “The Secret Garden” has a certain line stuck in my head.  Remember when she is asking for a piece of earth?  That is what I feel like right now.  “Just a little piece of earth please”.

I am so so so happy.  Despite the horrible time I had last night.

There was this early “homeschool” thanksgiving meal last night.  Yes, I am way graduated, but I went with my family.  Anyway, I never really fit in with my “homeschool” peers…I was always the weird one.  I didn’t have any friends up until highschool.  I was super shy when I was little…sometimes I still am..but I love people, and I like to get to know them.  Being shy isn’t a good way to get to know people(o;  I still don’t fit in with those people though.  I was nervous about going to the thing, and my gut was right.  I walked in, and instantly got the “who does she think she is…what in the world is she wearing” look.  I used to have really bad self-esteem issues.  I don’t anymore, but when I got that look I started feeling like crawling into a corner.  I stood up straight and smiled though.  I wasn’t about to let that get the best of me.  Then I tried to start a conversation with an old friend.  I asked her some questions, she coldly answered them, and then just walked away from me.  Burn burn burn.  I felt like crying the rest of the evening.

I had to remind myself that I have some really caring and awesome family and friends.  That made a lot of things better.  I am so thankful that God has put such rad people in my life.  Thank you Jesus.  Thank you Jesus♥

I had an amazing time with Jesus this morning.  I’m almost finished with Isaiah.  I read chapter 65 this morning.  There are some beautiful verses in there…I just wanted to share this one verse with you though:

“And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear.” (v.24)

As I read this verse, my heart began to swell, and it just made me so happy.  I want heaven so badly today.  I want Jesus even more♥

I really really really want to go to the beach soon(even now..).

I’M ALMOST 20!!!  I can’t believe it!  Countdown to my birthday.  I am so excited!

Started a new veil.  I am so excited about this one.  It is going to be so happy looking. (o:

Also, I have become completely addicted to Owl City.  I seriously have to listen to him all the time.  Adam Young’s music makes me so unbelievably happy.

I think I will go make some lunch now.  Hope you have a splendid day.  I love you my friends.

ria♥

i hate you.

Dear sore throat:
I hate you.  Would you please go away?
I just want to go to sleep.
ria♥

free potatoes.

Huzzah! for free bags of potatoes.
God is good.

my dad and his job.

My dad got a job interview this Thur.
Tomorrow he helps turn in the phones, keys, and mish mash from the other job.
I felt like crying because Jesus is so good.
Pray that the LORD’s will would be done.

Thank you Jesus..thank you Jesus♥
love…
ria♥

the “wild things” made me scream with joy♥

Today, I am not feeling well; but that is nothing new is it?

I said I would write a “Wild Things” post.  So I’ve decided to.  The movie was amazing.  You should go see it…seriously you should.  It was so unexpected, and I think that is what made it so darn beautiful.  The whole movie is a delightful piece of art…from the Wild Things…to their buildings..to the emotion…everything was beautiful.  My favourite part though?  It had to be the soundtrack.  Karen O and the Kids did a marvelous job.♥

I have my very own wild thing though.  (o;

The other day I got sobbing angry sad..and I ended up sitting outside in our gravel driveway.  Then Tandy came to sit with me(Keats book in hand…she was told by Bella to read it to me), and that made everything better.  You have to see the movie to understand this picture.

And Halloween is coming up soon..but we don’t really celebrate that…it has always scared me quite a bit.  It is John Keats birthday though.  Bella has insisted that we celebrate that instead..so I think we might.  Tandy also has a race..WE WILL BE CHEERING FOR HER!!!  Mamma does the story time for our local library…she dressed up with Franny. I did her makeup…doesn’t she look rad?

Off to paint my toenails now..

that always makes me feel better(o:

love…

ria♥

ug….

I feel sick again.

Hello weekend.
ria♥

mr.amazing doctor.

I have been thinking about amazing things that people have done lately. The other day my sister had this show on, and the dad of the show was over in some other country helping these children who were deformed and small..while I was watching, I became completely fixated on the doctors and their compassion for these children.  To those poor people, those doctors must have seemed amazing.  They seemed amazing to me.  Then I thought to myself…”Could you do something like that ria?”.  And I had to think about it.  Why wasn’t I in medical school, trying to get my degree so I could help children like this?  Because I am afraid?..and to tell truth..maybe a little lazy.  Who wants to sit in medical school for 7 years to become a doctor, so you could help children in the third world.  Hard take there, huh?  Foolish, selfish, unmotivated person I am.  So from this point on..I am going to try and take every opportunity I get to volunteer, or help out with causes.  This life is too short for us to waste it upon ourselves.  I know I need more compassion.  Do you?

love…

ria♥

soup dear.

Soup kitchen today♥

loving this quote though:
“If there lurks in most modern minds the notion that to desire our own good and to earnestly hope for the enjoyment of it is a bad thing, I suggest that this notion has crept in from Kant and the Stoics and is no part of the Christian faith. Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling around with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.” ~C.S. Lewis (“The Weight of Glory”)

love…
ria♥

cl.ea.n.{ing}

Today I had quite quite quite a busy day.  I’m feeling much better, and I think Frank is leaving soon.  I told him he couldn’t stay any more..so he has started packing.  Which makes me feel better(o;

anyway….

Today I:

1. cleaned my room.
2. cleaned the house.
3. listened to 4 straight hours of brass band and opera.
4. did my handwash(it had been on my mental checklist for quite a while..and I was kind of getting mad at myself for being so lazy..so I did it).  I love clean clothes don’t you?!
5. played with an accordian..it may be in a new song everyone!
6. cleaned.
7. cleaned.
8. cleaned.
9. felt like crying(because of music..I’m one of those peoples that cry because of music♥).
10. didn’t dress up.  I wore a t-shirt today.  Which is a rarity with me..You know, sometimes it’s just good to wear a little t-shirt.  No one was coming over, and I wasn’t going anywhere, so I figured it was okay to wear a t-shirt today.  No sweats though, mind you..I can’t handle sweats.
11. put away the Costco groceries.
12. watched a couple of episodes of the Locator with my family.
13. thought about Jesus.
14. fell more in love with Jesus.
15. was a little housewife( actually, I pretended to be a housewife, because I’m not a “wife”.  Which, sometimes makes me angry and sometimes makes me sad, but usually I am happy about being single. I think being single right now is quite a gift, and I’d rather take it with a smile on my face, than with a frown. I don’t think guys like frowns♥).
16. ate a popsicle.
17. enjoyed life.

and you should enjoy life too.  Every second of it.  Don’t take it for granted.  Live every day to the fullest.  Embrace life and love and laughter.  Enjoy the sun.

love…

ria♥

p.s. Dear future husband:
I hope you like the Opera.

a mystery so massive and a funeral.

Mamma and Tandy went to a funeral today(I couldn’t go because of Frank).

I’ve been thinking about funerals..and wouldn’t it be a really rad job if people hired you to come to their funerals?  I would totally love that job.  I don’t know why..it just seems very appealing to me.

Entered the fort contest(see my previous post).

What do you think?

But this is not what I wanted to write about.  What I wanted to write about is a verse in Philippians that spoke to my heart this morning:

“Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus.”
~Philippians 2:5

Simple verse, really.  I began to think about it though..and came up with this:

The mind of Christ was pure.
The mind of Christ was lovely.
The mind of Christ was loving.
The mind of Christ was compassionate.
The mind of Christ was fruitful.
The mind of Christ was strong.
The mind of Christ was wise.
The mind of Christ was dependent on the Father.
The mind of Christ was obedient.
The mind of Christ was not judgmental in any way.
The mind of Christ was humble.
The mind of Christ was blameless.

And all these things are POSSIBLE in us.  Because Jesus is IN those that follow Him. (Col. 3:3)  He is IN those that have chosen to tie their hammock strings into Him.  He is IN those that have chosen the path that He has walked upon.  The path of suffering and dying, but ultimately has brought life and redemption to all men.  The mind of Christ is the life in us.  It is a great mystery, but something so amazing that not even our complex minds can work out.  It is something in which our faith needs to be put into action.  I believe that Jesus is in me.  I believe it with all my heart.  I cannot explain theologically or scientifically.  All I can tell you is that I have been redeemed.  I have been bought with a price more massive than I could ever know.  I know that Jesus has changed me though.  I know and believe that my life has been rearranged and put aright by my heavenly Father.  And that, my friends, makes my heart explode with joy.  How wonderful the mind of Christ is.♥

Well…I’m off to play Project Runway with Bella.

love…

ria♥