Yesterday was so sad…I had to take all my clothes lines down from my ceiling.  I was so lonely too, so I had the radio on and listened to men talk about jazz and I usually don’t do that, but their voices were somewhat comforting to me(so I left it on).  I wore Erma’s necklace and my “Audry Hepburn” glasses and my yellow sweatshirt.  I thought that wearing the color yellow might help me to be happy[it did a bit].  I took down all the letters I had received, and all my scarves, and my earring collection, and all my paper cutouts, and the poetry that I had clipped up there.  Then I took down all the strings and the gold eye hooks that I had so diligently screwed into the ceiling.  And now the room is all white and bare(except for my yellow dresser of course).  I didn’t want to get out of bed this morning.  But I did(o; and I sat down and I prayed out loud.  I like praying out loud, because I feel like I’m actually speaking to Someone; and you know, God is so real and He deserves that we talk to Him audibly and not just in our heads.  So I prayed for a good while, and then I opened the Word and started to read the story of David and Goliath(I’m teaching it to the kids today).  The LORD is so good.  It was like the LORD was speaking to me.  It was like He was saying to me “all you will ever need is Me.  I AM.  and there is no one else.  I will help you, and I will guide you.  I AM.”  Then I opened up to the Psalms.  Here is a verse that spoke so sweetly to my heart in Psalm 61:

“From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”(verse 2)

I can’t believe it is almost over.  2 days and I’m done.  2 days and I start the next chapter of my life..which makes me smile, because the LORD’s plan for my life is so intricate, and sometimes I can’t understand it, but when I see it unfold it is SO COMPLETELY GLORIOUS(o:  And even when my heart is overwhelmed and I DON”T KNOW what is going to happen, I know the LORD does, and all I need to do is find my rest in Him.  He is my rock, my Saviour, and my God..and there is none like Him.  I love you LORD with all my heart♥

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Yesterday, I also went to the farmer’s market and bought A WHOLE BUNCH OF FLOWERS.  Then I rode home on my bike with all these flowers..I must have been a sight to see, because people kept giving me these funny looks.  ;oP  Now there are all these flowers in my fridge, because I have to keep them till graduation on Sat.  They are quite happy right now though.

sing today, because today is a good day♥

-ria